This piece is the closest to my heart. I had written this with a soggy face, in a noisy crowd, in a classroom, as far as my memory goes. I was evolving and I still am. But I will not hesitate to say that I was a beautiful wallflower.
Did I mention, that I can write too when y’all talked about the jams and poems?
Did I mention, that I laugh too, looking at myself when y’all confessed that you laugh at how weird y’all are?
Did I mention, that I cry in the bathroom alone sometimes just like how you do when you feel cold?
Did I mention, that I watch the same show again and again because it feels like the first time, when you said you’re more like Ross?
Did I mention, that I binge eat as well when I have no one to talk to and make them understand my feelings when you smiled and told me that you’re okay, eating like you haven’t eaten in days?
Did I mention, that really, I’m just like y’all?
Did I mention, that I don’t really try to fit in?
I didn’t, did I?
Now, that’s just me.
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